The Template
New entry about the new template was written on 15th December 2005, 2.36pm.
I apologise for taking such a long time to write about this new template, but later is better than never, so here goes!
Rosytears.
How much this word has come to mean to me through these past few years, I cannot explain.
Rosytears, my very own personal word, a term coined by yours truly. A word that isn't even an official word at all, because it isn't, and never will be, found in the dictionary.
But this word is every bit as alive to me as it always has been, and I doubt anything will ever change this. And as with every diary, a good template is needed to give the "feel" of the diary and to make the place a homely one.
Today, after two years and more for having stuck to my butterfly, pinkish template that many came to label as "the rosytears template", I finally have gotten a new one. It's nowhere as decorative as the previous one, nor is it anywhere as bright as the old one used to be, but this template represents me in so many ways than one.
The picture is taken from one of the most classic moments in the movie, A Cinderella Story, which remains my ultimate favourite movie until today. Friends who know me will know how much of a Cinderella-fanatic I am, with all my beliefs in sappy fairytales and happy-ever-after endings.
I owe this extremely beautiful template to my best friend, my sister, my confidante- Anna. Every stroke of the paintbrush used in creating this photoshopped template represents our friendship, our closeness, and the love that we share. That adds even more meaning to this template, which also happens to be my dream template, because of the telepathy that we have between us that made her able to come up with the very template which I love up till today.
The pink hues speak of the girl hidden inside of me, the very feminine, very girly-sort of female who loves typical girlish things. The flower stamp resembles beauty, and shows how much I truly love the natural surroundings, for I'm someone who believes in "stopping to smell the flowers by the road".
The butterfly drop at the side of the links speak of how, sometimes, some things so beautiful can even fall, but nonetheless the fact remains that it was once beautiful. And this, is just like Life- sometimes we're high up on its rollercoaster ride, yet at other times we're right at the bottom and we don't know where to move on. But Life itself, despite the pain and sufferings, will always be beautiful, because Life in itself, is a miracle.
The words
"Maybe someday, I'll get my fairytale ending"
show the longing, etched deep inside my heart, to experience what I've always seen and loved on TV as well as what I've always read about in fairytales. As much as I believe in Fate, in Destiny, that our lives are already mapped out in the stars and that we'll never be truly complete until we find our other half, I do lose faith sometimes. This template serves as a reminder to me to keep on believing, that someday, I'll be able to find my Prince Charming, and live the fairytale life I've always dreamed of.
Even though it's been over five years since I started writing in here, I want to say that I still believe.
4th december 2005: I promise to edit this page reallly soon! And I'll try to put up a screenshot of rosytears' previous template as well. After all, it stayed with me through so much, and for so long.
People change with the passing of time, and likewise, in this same pattern, diary templates change as time passes us by, they change and they change, there's no end to the numerous templates avaliable out there that there's definitely one that fits you.
And as for me, this is the perfect template that I've been searching for. Before I found this, my templates were forever-changing, it wasnt a surprise to check back the next day and view a completely different image. It was just the way things lay. But then I came across this template by chance, fell in love in it, understood it, and took it.
It has been months since I had this template, and I'm not yet tired of it. This template shows the inner me, the me who wishes on that evening star, the me who loves cinderella, the Jewelx who believes in that fairytale ending. The purple and pink shows my love for bright colours, and they bring out the me inside. Purple speaks of the independence I've always held in myself, and pink speaks of the warm heart I have inside my body. The butterfly and flowers indicates that love will always prevail, and nothing can change my way of thinking.
I had many experiences with love and real life before, but nothing has been able to change my opinions, and beliefs. You can read of these experiences in my diary, as scattered as they are. They do not come under themes, they come under time. And time it will be. Time will erase my physical memories, so this diary is a way of me locking them all up, for me to reflect back upon. And I still believe in Cinderella, and that is, my ideal life story.
This template means more to me than words could ever express, and no one but me will ever be able to understand. Maybe others will find it boring, childish, girlish, whatever. I dont care, this is my diary and my template. I would like to express my utmost appreciation to App-Designs, who supplied the basics for this template. It has been made perfect over months of hard work and effort. And I am proud of the result.
Plain it may be, it's beautiful to me. And no words will ever be able to explain that.
Once again, many thanks to App-Designs, for making this diary a perfect being with its clothing, this template. Jewelx would like to thank you.